Ntonhle Dlamini

…if it was possible to cry underwater.

I still don’t know.

But, what I discovered today is that it is on fact possible to cry in the shower.

The teardrops move at a different pace and they’re a different temperature. So I could tell them apart from the water droplets on my face.

Why was I crying? Because I was unraveling.

In real time in the shower.

I blame the affirming lyrics of Jphnathan mcreynolds’ song”Enough”. 

I’ve known this song for years but today I decided to actually listen to it and internalise its message.

Apparently, I am enough aaaand I will always be loved.

I say apparently because its s difficult concept to grasp but logically, I know its true. I just need to believe it and let it sink in.