Ntonhle Dlamini

During the day.

Midday, when the sun is directly above the sky.

Also known as the time when literally noone will be outchea trying to get water.

Sigh, finally , some alone time.

This is peace for someone with social anxiety, or is it shame.. or the fear of perception caused by an inherent desire for unattainable perfection???!!!

“Its shame.”

Gasp! Who said that??!

Okayyyyy,so I’m not alone.

But really, who. said. that.

Daughter, we spoke just yesterday,do you not recognise my voice?

Oh, that’s right. The man I met here, the God-man.

Son of Man

God,incarnate.

Externally, He’s just a regular guy, like everyone else around here,exactly how Isaiah described Him centuries ago,

“For He [the Servant of God] grew up before Him like a tender shoot (plant), And like a root out of dry ground; He has no stately form or majestic splendor That we would look at Him, Nor [handsome] appearance that we would be attracted to Him.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭53‬:‭2‬ ‭AMP‬‬

Yet, there was something about Him, kindness in His eyes and warmth in His smile.

Jesus Christ, saviour of the world or as Isaiah calls Him,

“For to us a Child shall be born, to us a Son shall be given; And the government shall be upon His shoulder, And His name shall be called Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. [Is 25:1; 40:9-11; Matt 28:18; Luke 2:11]”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭9‬:‭6‬ ‭AMP‬‬

Daughter, He calls me “daughter”.

“Well, duh, what else is He supposed to call you” is what I assume you said.

But you don’t get it.

He is the only one who knows me more than myself.

My fears ,my thoughts,my past, my character flaws and sins I refuse to relinquish.

Everyone else who’s ever had a glimpse of the real me, has at some point used it against me.

But He didn’t, He approaches me with love, like a stranger, meeting the neat,aesthetic version of me.

Howcome?

Because you are not what happened to you.

I forget He can hear my thoughts.

Not me casually chilling with God at the well , at midday. How long has He been chilling here anyways?

I waited here all morning for you.

Why, I was here yesterday and we spoke, at length and why me, don’t you have other sons and daughters?

Of course I do and I love them just as unconditionally as I love you. Why not you?

You have worth, you have value.

You are sheep number 100.

Aaahh, Matthew 18:12

““What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep, and one of them gets lost, will he not leave the ninety-nine on the mountain and go in search of the one that is lost? [Luke 15:4-7]”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭18‬:‭12‬ ‭AMP‬‬

I was wondering when He would drop a parable, He’s famous for those.

I’m right here, you know.

I technically,didn’t say anything, sir.

Touché.

Banter, with Jesus??!!!

Who knew.

Turns out, God is not some big scary guy in the sky.

He’s loving and kind.

.. and closer than you think.

“The man of too many friends [chosen indiscriminately] will be broken in pieces and come to ruin, But there is a [true, loving] friend who [is reliable and] sticks closer than a brother.”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭18‬:‭24‬ ‭AMP‬‬

Closer than your brother, closer to you than your very next breath.